Hey everyone!! Guess what?? I am engaged to my best friend!! It has been the best craziest learning and spiritual journey getting here. From the first time I met Jaydon, I DREAMED of eventually marrying him. My wedding board became a secret me and Jaydon board haha. Here is my journey to getting to marry my best friend.
So Jaydon left on his 2 year mission and throughout that time I knew I was going to marry him. I didn't know how he felt about it but I sure loved him and was crazy obsessed with him. The way he served his Heavenly Father on his mission proved to me that he would serve me just like that and work hard for a great marriage/relationship just like he did with his companions and the Lord.
One decision that was so hard for me to decide was whether I was going to go on a mission or not. It was so hard for me because I love the Lord and would absolutely love to serve him but just didn't know what to do. I actually felt a little guilty thinking I might not go. I also knew marriage was so exciting and wonderful as well so I was honestly back and forth. I learned a lot through this experience about not comparing yourself to other peoples stories. EVERYONE IS DIFFERENT EVERYONE!! sometimes things work out sometimes they don't. I would get so caught up saying "well, so and so worked out and she served a mission" or "she didn't serve and was fine." To be honest, comparing only made things worst for me. What I learned was that it is between you and your amazing, loving, understanding, merciful Heavenly Father to decide whats best for you.
Instead of relying on google or the world to find an answer, I relied on conference talks, prayer, scripture study, my bishop, and wonderful parents to find what I need to do. As I did those things, the spirit slowly taught me what was best. I never got a big answer but I got good feelings that it was going to be alright thorough my process of deciding.
As i researched and went to mission prep and other things like, I became so much more grateful for missionaries and the sacrifice that they gave to the Lord and I also learned a lot about marriage to. To be honest, I thought marriage was some trip to disneyland. It is some of the time but is a lot of learning and working through things to celebrate those good times. I learned a lot about myself through this process and about the love my Heavenly Father has for each of us. We should never judge peoples paths because each are very personal.
I got sick in November and had a fever and was just shaking because I got so cold all of the time. I could barely get things done because I couldn't move without getting so cold. I asked sweet Jaydon for a blessing and in it he said that I would learn something from it. WHAT?? from being miserably cold with a fever?? I thought about that throughout the time of my sickness and realized what I needed to learn. I learned how protected and how well Jaydon would treat me for the rest of my life. He is AMAZING he made me food, wouldn't let me lift a finger, would get me medicine, rub my back, you name it. Right then, the spirit taught me through this trial to not be scared, or stressed about my life and made me realize that marriage is going to be my right path. Even though a mission would have been wonderful to, I felt so right about getting married.
I loved this talk that talks about going on a mission. It is a wonderful thing and helped me make my decision. Young Women and the Mission Decision and Mission Decision
anyways, kind of long but I just want to say that everyone has a different life. The best thing to do is to choose one thing and move toward it acting as if you are doing that thing and see how you feel and listen to the spirit over time. It takes a lot of patience and time sometimes but, I know that God and the spirit will be the best resource to making your decisions.
I couldn't be happier to marry my best friend and am still preparing to serve a mission when I get older and also being a missionary to my future children and people around me.
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