Lately, life has been pretty crazy but I have received and noticed so many blessings. It all started in December when I got engaged to Jaydon. We were planning on living in Provo and looked for a long time for apartments there constantly calling, checking places out and more. Nothing seemed to work out. We then started seeing if anywhere around Kaysville would be available and then, my grandmas old home that she rents out became open in Kaysville. It was such a blessing to us! Well, we got married and moved into the home and started out life together. We both worked and went to Weber State. I had my mind set on getting into the Elementary Program in January and had interviewed and worked to meet all of the requirements. I was on birth control pills and they made me super sick and not like myself. I would cry all the time for no reason and was just not ever myself. I decided to get off the pills and switch.
Right before I was going to switch, Jaydon and I went to church and heard this girl talk about a brand new baby in a hospital and we both looked at each other and asked when we would want to have kids. I felt this comforting feeling that we would have a baby soon. I kind of forgot about it and went on with everything. A couple weeks later, I came home from work super late and Jaydon was already asleep. I felt weird and kept having the weirdest feeling I was pregnant. I couldn't sleep! I told myself that I would take a test when I woke up and that everything was ok. Well, the next day was August 25th. The day I met Jaydon for the first time.
I woke up around 6:30 and still couldn't sleep and Jaydon had left to work. I decided to take a test knowing that it will comfort me helping me know I wasn't pregnant and help me go back to sleep and..... I sat there waiting and saw 2 lines form. I felt the craziest feeling and didn't know what to do so I immediately fell to my knees praying for comfort. I then went to read the scriptures and I wrote everything in my journal and just was in shock! The saddest thing that I thought was, "What will people think of me?" "Am I crazy?" "What am I going to do with school?" "What will Jaydon think?" "I am only 19!!!" I didn't feel ready to be a mom but, Heavenly Father knew I was and that's all that mattered to me. I felt so weird all day waiting for Jaydon. I would be completely fine washing dishes and then break down and just sit on the floor in my kitchen and cry. My whole life flipped! I was planning on getting Jaydon a journal for our anniversary and so I decided to write every date from August 25, 2013-August 25, 2018 like a journal article. The first one went something like, "I went to the trek fireside and saw the cutest guy sitting on the stand today. I am about to start high school and am so excited to start dating." I then wrote an article for August 25th, 2018 and wrote about waking up with out little baby. I felt so weird writing this. When he got home from work, I gave him the journal and honestly it was thee longest day of my life!!!! I wanted to tell him every time he called. He opened the journal and read through it and then realized I was pregnant. He looked at me and I was balling. We both hugged each other and felt the greatest peace. From then on, I felt like I pretty much put my life in Christ's hands. I knew that I couldn't do it without him because this wasn't something I expected. I received so much comfort and couldn't imagine my life without this sweet baby.
Jaydon is so sweet about it and kisses me and the baby in the morning:) Having that home and being in Kaysville was a huge blessing that we didn't even see until now. We have enough room for a baby and live close to family so they can help. Heavenly Father works in mysterious ways and sometimes we have to walk blindly with his hand guiding us to receive full joy.
Now I am 16 weeks and I couldn't be happier. Seeing the baby in the ultrasound was the most spiritual feeling and I love knowing that there is a little baby in my stomach that me and my eternal companion created. I feel so grateful to have this opportunity even though I am young and can't wait to carry a sweet baby straight from heaven.
We are now finding out the gender of this baby that I have dreamed about for so long tomorrow!!!
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